Room to Improve

It's never a good thing when you wake up in the morning wanting to cry because of the dream you just had. Hopefully today will improve from the way it started. I don't want it to continue this way.

Amazing Day

My birthday was amazing! The highlights of my day are as follows...

1- Staying up until 2:30 talking to an amazing friend. (see previous post)

2- Getting a chance to sleep in for a little bit. (see previous post)

3- Reading the Happy Birthday to You! book by Dr. Suess at work. (yeah, so I was really excited...what can I say)

4- Miniature party at work.
5- Finishing the Book of Mormon. (2 months ago, I decided to make a goal to read the Book of Mormon by my birthday. Even though I didn't always stay on the schedule I planned, I was able to finish it. It felt amazing!)

6- Getting kidnapped for dinner with my awesome friends. (I was told that I was going to have dinner with a friend that hasn't been in Provo for a while, and was extremely excited. I went down the stairs to head over to his apartment and got ambushed. I ended up with a pillowcase over my head and my hands in handcuffs...which, p.s. left marks on my wrists that were there all night. They took me to a park where we had pizza and just hung out for a little bit. So much fun!)

(Pictures to come)

7- Wonderful party with lots of great people. (I'll be honest and say that I didn't know how many people would actually come, but I was truly surprised. Lots of friends, cake and ice cream, fun decorations, and a small bit of live entertainment! Seriously, a perfect party!)

8- Amazing friends who made today perfect! (I have truly been blessed with incredible friends. No one can really know how much this day meant to me.)Thank you everyone for such a Perfect Day!!!

Happy Birthday to ME!!!!!!!

It's going to be a great day! It's starting out great...aside from only 5 hours of sleep last night. But that happened because I was talking to a great friend. To start my birthday off (and I mean in the 12:00 am way) I realized how much two people that I love really care about me. And that's one of the greatest birthday presents I could have gotten (so, thank you!!!). Then I don't have to be at work as early as I was planning and got to sleep in just a little bit longer than I have the rest of the week. And it's just going to be a great day!!

Let it Go

On the way home from work, I drove through a rainstorm. The song on the radio was Tim McGraw's "Let it Go." It spoke to my heart...

The words that made the biggest impression on me are the chorus:

Today I'm gonna keep on walking

I'm gonna hold my head up high

Gonna leave it all behind

Today I'm gonna stand out in the rain

Let it wash it all away, yeah wash it all away

I'm gonna let it go

I can't really explain the effect those words had on me. But this afternoon, I spent half an hour standing out in the rain and thinking. It felt amazing. I have been struggling with something the last few weeks, and today I took a major step toward healing. I let the rain wash away some of my fears. It's not all better, but it will be. With time, I will be fine and will be able to completely Let it Go.

Patience, Faith, and Hope

That's what I need right now. The End.

Happy August!!!

It's crazy to think that it's already August. But this is one of my favorite weeks of the year...My Birthday Week!! It's starting off rather well, and it's just going to be an awesome week...

Sunday: Church was amazing today...followed by a good Sunday evening with friends.
Monday: I'm going to take a test as part of an interview process...which will hopefully be followed by a job offer at Alpine Credit Union (cross your fingers!!)
Tuesday: Ward Temple Trip.
Wednesday: Ward Party at Payson Water Park.
Thursday: Nothing really planned, but I'm sure I'll come up with something.
Friday: MY BIRTHDAY!!! And I am actually going to have a birthday party. I haven't really had a good birthday party with friends since I was 12...so now that I'm going to be 24, I guess it's time again.
Saturday: Probably do something with friends...that tends to be what happens. :)
Sunday: Birthday party with the family!

Yep, it's going to be a good week. Somewhere in all that I've got planned, I need to take time to clean my room. It's been a crazy mess, but I really want it all taken care of and possibly reorganized by Friday. I don't want a messy room on my birthday. But as for now, it's time for bed. And it's the earliest I will have gone to bed in a while, so it will be really nice.

Not Feel Good Day

Today was a not feel good day...at least most of it. There were some really good parts like getting a great haircut and watching a friend open her mission call. Those parts of the day were great. However, the rest was not so good. I need to feel better about work, or at least about the idea new work prospects. I really want to move on from where I am, so it's time to really start looking again. I need to feel better about certain aspects of my life and find out what I should be doing right now. This wondering thing is really wearing on me. I need to feel better physically...My back and neck are almost always in pain, my stomach is not very happy with me right now, and I'm just exhausted. Maybe that's the real reason for the not feel good day. Maybe I just need to sleep.